I’m halfway through. 3 months I’ve been working on myself in therapy. I decided to skip the update of the second month and do on update when also the third month had happened. Everything got a bit hectic and I quite a bit tired, which made doing anything extra next to my therapy an almost impossible job. However I did mad some major steps the last two months. I started eating more and gained one and a half kilo already. Of course, eating more had made often very anxious and uncomfortable, but I got myself through. Slowly but surely the confidence that my body can handle it all is growing.
The time I used to spend OCDing before bed, I have reduced to only twenty minutes, which is great! I now can just go to bed like a normal person, well almost normal.
Halfway through the second month I finished my writing course. Which meant I didn’t need to spend the weekends working hard on assignments, but on getting some energy back before the next week. However, I did mean the only thing I was doing was working on myself during the four days a week spent in therapy and mostly sleeping and recovering energy during the weekends. This made me feel somewhat down and later on less motivated. I felt a need to do something for me that I liked and could get energy from, something that made me feel me again. Because I started not to feel like myself, but some empty shell that used to hold me. But on the 24th of November I started a sewing course, something that gave me back some energy, something I know really enjoy doing and hope to eventually be able to make some great things.
And for the coming month, I will continue to make some big steps, I will keep eating and soon I will only go two days a week to therapy instead of four which means I will be able to pick up writing (as I will have a bit more energy) and with that pick up my blog again too.
I wish you all a cozy and wonderful Christmas and a great 2017.